Happy November!

Happy November! We have officially surpassed the 5 month countdown to the wedding, as of yesterday! Despite the whole I'm-still-recovering-from-surgery-thing (meaning I have to walk carefully, move slowly, and my neck and back are killing me from only sleeping on my back at an incline) I am in incredibly good spirits. I know the recovery takes time, and I know it will be a few weeks until I'm moving around again like a regular person, but I also know that each day is a little better than the last, and each day is one day closer to getting back to normal. I want to run again, sleep on my stomach, stretch, and dash up the stairs. It sucks to not be able to move normally and to always have to be careful when making food or going to the bathroom, so as not to stretch the stitches, but I have to keep reminding myself that when all this is over (all the healing and recovery) I WILL be able to move normally again. Implants allow that. The expander didn't. Although I could run with the expander (uncomfortably) and stretch with it, and lift weights and do crunches, it was never, ever comfortable and I never, ever felt normal. I could barely carry purses (even light ones), and open the car door without pain. But that phase is over. With the implants I will be to move freely again. Go to places with large crowds and not be scared of someone bumping me. And run. Like a regular person. And DRIVE! Without pain and discomfort. I've got to be patient and let myself heal. I know these things will come. It's only been five days since the surgery. But I'm able to wait and let myself recover slowly. But I also know myself, and I want to be better quickly. I want to be back to life.

So, that's where I am today. Five days since the surgery. I'm happy I'm healing. Happy with the implants. Happy I have such amazing people in my life. Breast cancer is still on my mind, but now it's no longer part of my body.
Also, today is my first day back on regular coffee. One of our friends brought over a wonderful Halloween basket yesterday (thank you Nanci! here's your shoutout!) filled with pumpkin bagels, cream cheese, apple butter (which I LOVE and haven't had in years!), chocolate (of course!), a little painted pumpkin, and pumpkin spice coffee. What a wonderful way to get "back on" coffee: (it's my drug apparently) pumpkin spice! It was delicious and warming!

So I think (actually, I know) ... today is a good day. My nausea and headaches are gone, and all I feel now is soreness from the surgery. But I'm getting there. And one day I'll BE there. I have everything in the world to keep me going.


*Pictures are of beautiful flowers I've received these past few days!